It was a reality check, rather, a jolt for me recently when someone close to me made some confessions that truly shocked me and made me doubt everything that i know. Of course i was never the one to set high standards and my greatest downfall had been believing there is good in every bad. That may not be a bad thing, but when your life is based on such shaky foundations, it eventually crumbles.
I came face to face with a major life decision. A choice. Frost's poem comes to mind. Of course i had always chosen the less travelled.. mysterious, stubborn, original and eccentric as my Aquarius stars would be.. and in some cases, ended up at a dead end but always proud i tried.
But just for once i am obliged to follow that that everyone has been and knows well. For just once in my life, i want to play safe.. though it may not thrill or give me the fulfillment i need, but at least i know il be safe.
Ive come to overate love. After 32 chick flicks in 40 days, i begin to see the pattern of hyposis. Man should be willing to die for his love, beep, real life, hell no! Every circumstance i had set up for myself in order to finally find that thing as ultimate love, had all been uneventful. Dedicated all of my youth to one and all of my trust to another... it had been just sheer foolishness.
But at least i should be grateful to the universe i guess, for embracing within me its compassionate arms to give me another chance at this again. And this time i have to choose well.. i need to. For once il do without love, il do with convenience. And I hope that will do.
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