Mano's cry

Ive always wondered what is about the mind mechanism which has immense potential to create instead can crumble into such a bad state disrepair that it starts purging out hell after hell for the very same person. It seems such a vague borderline and a matter of very delicate chemical balances, almost like an ml of too much or pain and suffering, the mind turns toxic.

Psychiatry has attempted to treat such imbalances with various chemicals and therapy but almost to no vail and in many cases only worsened such conditions. The most the medications do is drug up the whole pathways as to render the person unconscious most of the time hence making them almost forgettable.

Ive always wondered how we could go about rectifying the damages, is it like a harden scar on the mind's makeup which we need to scrap and discard or is there ever going to be a quick fix solution to ease the misery on millions of people in this world who are stuck with that diseased mind.
Why havent the greatest scientists and discoverers done anything concrete about it instead of just running the bush and inventing other useless things to destroy the world.

I hv an aunt with schizophrenia and bipolar rolled into one. My early responses to her predictably reflected how others, especially the rest of the family treated her, her siblings especially. There was admittedly much criticism, disapproval, patronising and condenscendings all her life. To mask her initial distress, she resorted to binges and had periods of hysteria in her teens.

Instead of gentle understanding and support to ease her out of it, she was also subjected to ridicule by her own brothers (elders) and sister who failed to put themselves in her situation. Though she is highly intelligent, creative and extremely sensitive to the feelings of others which i believe is the source of her downfall and putting her psychological self in a very low place of self chastisement and meek acceptance of a bad fate or karma. It is also a very very sad place of self defeat where she believes she deserves all the bad treatments she gets because she had done something bad.

It is easy and equally hard to blame the rest of the world for their cluelessness and ignorance. It took me 40 years to finally hv an inkling of the sadness that runs through her  soul each time she feels all she has left in her life (she is 48 now) is to lap up whatever titbits of care or affection that is dished out to her when people feel they can afford the time and space from what they claim to be their very busy lives chasing money and other such.

Just a week back, i think i heard her soul rise and speak in a moment of clarity. She stated her disappointment of being unvalidated each time she tries to voice out her heartaches. Her opinions are callously brushed off  like that of an unintelligible idiot. No one takes her seriously when she wished to voice her emotions. So when she eventually is driven into her outbursts, she is told to shut up and go take her medications or else....! Despite all this unfairness, when she does settle down in one of her better moods, she can be the most selfless of all to the point of self-sacrificing in order to please whom she cares for. Rather remarkable it is, the need to be loved and what it does to the soul that is deprived.

It took me a while to check myself and remind myself of what had inspired my blog title. Being Humane. Just because a person is suffering from a diseased mind and behaving irrationally or even meanly does not mean we  have the right to treat them inhumanely. Inhumane doesnt hv to be a point where you abuse them but can be a lack of care and respect for that human as a spiritual being experiencing various human lives. We are after all no lesser or greater than one other no matter what degrees we hold, what great jobs we do or what caste or creed we belong to. End of the day, just humans, we all are. And the endless hurtings, must stop.