I am a socially inadequate Indian DIL. First of all im of chocolatey brown skin that actually glows like honey under warm lighthing...but who cares...Indians love their DIL to be peaches or wheaty...it is an obsessive thing. Better still you are a Malayalee girl..though God knows everyone knows that history points to Malayaless fairness coming from the spilled seeds of whitemen invaders off the shores of Keralas over the centuries..a process of bastardisation that many Malayalees (and probably many of those Indian origins of the borders..as well the Northerns) are afraid to acknowledge less they are thrown of the societal pedestal they built for themselves. Back to Indian obsession with skin colour, i think that could also be remnants of the white men programming, those bastards are first class at brainwashing and mass hypnotism... that's why they are capable of ruling the world tho they hardly have half the courage Indian warriors of those days had.
I knew an acquantaince who married this girl. She was very fair, a very suspicious Malay lookin colour. No one knew what really was her parentage coz she was adopted...but he married her anyway coz she had pretty toes that looked perfect in red nail polish..lol..which was really funny coz this girl was rather dumb. She had such fixation with branded things tho he was only an average blue collar and hardly able to service her so called 'expensive tastes' and she ended borrowing money 15 mins (30 mins with me tho) after she got to know anyone. But he forgave her tho he was drowing in debts and unexpected attacks from frazed friends and relatives, and i guess being police was really hard on him too...but he forgave her each time...coz she was really fair and looked really angelic. Apparently fair is synonymous to innocence too...again false programming .."black is evil, white is pure" by the white men...lol...(sigh)
Indians pride themselves to be the world's great believers in God yet can't seem accept what he had bestowed upon them...in fact they end up degrading other humans based on the skin colour and caste (which is another shitty story for some other day) that is no fault of theirs. Isnt it amazing to think that this race that is synonym to wisdom and enlightenment and great sages and vedas... Mahrajas and dynasties of those days? Indians i guess... hv lost their way...sad really..as Vivekanda said Indians are traitors of their own kind...having betrayed India many times to the pig skinned ...not really white. (sigh)
This colour prejudice is actually an obsession of the older generations, the aged aunties and uncles of yesteryears. Their clueless parents and in laws probably did it to them too. Don't know when the adulation of white skin began, maybe with the invaders as their own Gods Krishna and Siva are darkskinned. Indians also fail to realise that it is a clever manipulative conditioning by also the so called higher castes like brahmin (who we all know are basically Aryans, not really Indians in the aunthentic sense and again good at brainwashing and have reinterpreted the vedas according to their advantage to guard their so called supremacy) who want to safeguard their future. You see, the problems with Indians, they are too scared to question certain things. Fear paralyses their thinking. They were shut up for centuries with threats of dooms in afterlife by these Brahmins if they questioned.
Ironically the Sri Lankans, a group of tribal Indians who wouldnt take this shit from the rat-tailed Brahmins decided to move south and join the white men to build a better life for themselves..and actually got carried away with it...which unfortunately ended up as another form of betrayal of their kind. Oppression always finds an ugly way out.
I dont care a damn for the castes... it was never meant to be a hereditary system.. those days it was convenient to class people according to their capabilities so it was easy to slot them into responsibilities in a close knit kingdom. You see, those days they never had A'Levels, or Diplomas or Degrees or PhD to help segregate. So people were classified as per their natural inclinations. But the devious Brahmins decided had to manipulate the whole system to their advantage...as in many civilisations of the world. I digress.
So, I refused to be sucked into that shithole, like many other right thinking Indians... complete waste of our time when we have better things to do with our lives rather than watching Tamil series and gossiping about relatives. And it is heartening to see the new generations are crossing over that delusional state and learning to take pride of who they are, no matter, pink, yellow or brown.
So yea, back to my predicament, first im not fair so that is a grievance really handy against me. Secondly i dont kiss up...not in my genes, not in my upbringing and not in my liking... yup.. i call a spade a spade and this sense of loyalty in every traditional Indian family.. i think it is really stupid, goes against human rights and actually sabotaging the betterment of the individual and his family in the long run.
I mean, love doesnt mean that you have to accept a person blindly and indirectly encouraging their wrongdoings. If you loved your child, wouldnt you teach him the good and bad. Wouldnt you fret to see him go the wrong way... falling over and over..would you rather tell him he is wrong and help him to clean up his act or would you pat him and say that he is perfect and the whole world is screwed up? Isnt that sabotaging that child? Especially if you are backing them up coz you are afraid to lose their affection? A child that grows up to be a good human being will eventually realise that sometimes your parents need to be cruel to be kind and appreciate that you had the courage to take that step. .
Many Indian parents...they dont do that. They cover up for their kids, they live in denial... its all due to their own selfishness in the end..they are scared they will lose their child if they are hard on him... they think by closing both eyes the child will remain with them forever...a barter trade of emotions ..but in many cases, they end up losing that child when the child knows better. Otherwise the child grows up to be really manipulative, abuse the situation to his advantage and in many cases ends up abusing the parent because she is weak.
So i dont do that, i dont believe in blind loyalty, so shoot me. I'm not comfortable receiving such thing too. You have been put on earth for many lessons and you are never too old to learn..why waste the precious opportunity. I stick my head out when i see injustice done and have got my head shot down many times for it. But guess what, i can die happily knowing i have not done anyone any unfairness and that's all it matters.
So yea... im the wrong colour and i dont kiss up. These are the main two criterias in which i have failed miserably in being a good ..er.. INDIAN ..daughter in law...in the blurry eyes of the old system (those old aunties/uncles era) i guess... . I do feel sad though and wished they saw things from my perspective without judging me... but alas.. they are old bamboos too hard to bend. They may hv to return a few lifetimes to realise and attone for this human injustice they hv done.
But i live in faith that all this stupidity will end one day... will be wiped out by the smarter, more discerning new Indian generation, the ones who would be open to growth in being a good human being. Hopefully by the time my children grow up... i hope they become the wise, dynamic Indians who once ruled the face of this earth.
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