The IT

I get a frantic call in the middle of the night from her warning me "keep the child away from him. Mark my words, he is no good'" I was just so tired from a long day i had no patience to deal with it. In fact i hated to hv a child's name dragged into dirt, watever way. I acknowledged it but i couldnt encourage it cause these things have a way of turning back at you. So i cut her short and silenced the phone. But i know she was not done. It was just starting and she was just playing a small role in the whole play that involved a main character and its many supporting roles.

In the next week or two , i saw things unfold as i knew they would. I sat at my corner and bade my time. Here comes another one! I noticed the hushed, away from home private discussion, the exchanged looks, the dropped words and finally look of triumph that always precedes the final confrontation. Another cycle of manipulation, isolation and sabotage completes itself. And the new player in the game is as gullible and ignorant as ever. Never grew up actually. Only hardened imprints of what was there, glossed over by a new coat of paint. Another slash over the list of my hopes. I knew i can never count on another unstable mechanism to step out of itself and acknowledge reality.

When the explosion happened, I decided to walk away than react to the usual taunts. That was the only way to deal with IT, the destructive mind mechanism that has prevailed for so long. I know how it works now. I had a lot of practice and I had enough of this crap. I know where i stand and given the same challenges thrown at me, i doubt anyone else would have come half way the path i did. So i really did not have to put up with anything. But i know it wont end either, that is if it ever will.

IT had only one objective, to WIN no matter right or wrong, morally or not, truthfully or not. Only way to survive. Manipulations, lies and saddest of all believing in the first two for true..a self delusion.. watever it takes. That is the only way IT survives.

But i am determined against all odds , against all that are against looking at the reality as it is.. that i will put an end to its spread. It will end with this life cycle. Maybe that is what that is left for me to do.

The caller came back to me again yesterday that i would be alone fighting against IT, cause everyone else seems to be thinking they are doing some good when they are only feeding on its ignorance and torture.. which they dont realise or dont want to.. its conveniet. But i do.. and in my seemingly callous actions against it .. i am actually doing it that favour that others are too much of a coward to do. Unlike them, i cant sit by and watch it destory itself and all that surrounds it in the end.

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